God is Changing Us...

So, I wasn't planning to write anything today, but I can't stop thinking that for some reason I should. Not sure what words are going to be spoken on this page, it may just be a jumbled mess of thoughts, but here they are...

I had a very long conversation with a dear dear friend who is facing one of THE most difficult times in her life and you know what I kept hearing her say again and again and again...

"I am trusting God"
"I am praying daily"

This same friend was there for me a few years ago when I was also facing a similar situation. She is so godly and so wise. I see her and think that she could be bitter, angry, revengful
But, NO...
She is trusting God.

And YES...
She is sad, hurt, lonely and broken.

But you know what... God is going to use her. She is committed and faithful and God sees that in her and HE will be glorified in the end. He will bless her and He will see her through. NO matter the outcome!
GOD IS CHANGING HER!

In a few weeks, my second daughter will begin the journey of starting her own life and seeking out God's plans for her. One week from today, she will leave our home to help my Aunt with her grandson for several months. Then, home for a few weeks and off to college she goes. She has been praying and seeking and asking God for HIS plan, for HIS will, for HIS desires to be met in her life.
She is growing.
She is leaping.
She is moving on.
GOD IS CHANGING HER!

A few weeks ago, my youngest daughter spent two weeks fasting from someone in order to seek God in their relationship. To make sure that it was right. That it was ok. She prayed.
She sought advice from godly women.
She cried.
She wrote letters to her past and to her future.
She sought forgiveness.
What 15 year old would do this? What 17 year old would do this?
God is working in her life. God is showing her
HE is AMAZING!
HE is FAITHFUL.
HE is FORGIVING.
And through HIM, all this can be done right. A relationship between two people, CAN glorify Him.
GOD IS CHANGING HER!

Another dear friend lost her twin sister, less than a year ago. She cried and she mourned and we all prayed for God to..
heal her hurt.
To lessen her pain.
To comfort her heart.
Recently, she had some time to allow God to truly begin to heal her. Her heart is hurting a little less and a little less each day. The sadness is turning to beautiful wonderful memories that she can now see with joy and not so much sorrow.
GOD IS CHANGING HER!

By nature, I am a worrier. I have been told again and again...

BE STILL AND KNOW THAT I AM GOD!

I KNOW that...but did I trust that?
NOPE...not at all! I could say it, but they were just words. Things were placed in my life consistently, so that I could BE STILL.
BUT, again and again,
time after time,
situation after situation...
I worried.
I didn't trust HIM.
Til recently.
I was faced with a hard choice.
I prayed.
I asked for prayer.
I cried.
I shared my concerns with my husband.
I listened to wise women.
I prayed and prayed and prayed.
I KNEW the answer.
I knew my choice.

THIS TIME...
I was STILL.
This time...
I KNEW that HE WAS GOD.
This time...
I TRUSTED HIM!
I DIDN't worry.

I still don't have an answer. But you know what...that's ok! I AM OK with that!
You know why, because...
GOD IS CHANGING ME!