Mr & Mrs Chad Duncan

So, I started this just as an update on the Weir Family facebook page and it became rather lengthy...So, someone wise said to me "Why don't you just blog and put a link to your blog on the page?" Thanks Steph! :o)

The wedding day was completely unstressful and such a great day! It was cloudy and that was an answer to Mel's prayers. Why? Because "clouds are better for outdoor pictures!" Of COURSE...why didn't I think of that! :o)

We got up and just relaxed, sitting around with coffee and snacks, just talking and having a great time together. After Stephanie finished Lyssa's hair and all of us getting ourselves ready, a little bit at a time, we went to the church to get Lys in her dress, take some pictures and get ready to walk that isle. Were we ready for this? I kept asking Scott and neither one of us could answer...

I didn't cry until I went to get Scott to see his beautiful daughter ready and waiting in her dress, to be given away by him and myself. Then the tears fell...How can it be possible that the little baby that God gave to us just over 18 years ago, was going to be a wife? She really was ready to leave us and cleave to her husband. There she was, standing on the other side of the door, I opened it up and her Dad was completely in awe of how beautiful she was...truly shining from the inside out! The tears were tears of joy, that God had given us such an amazing gift for a short time. He trusted us with this baby, who was now a woman.

HE...
trusted...
US!

I think we did ok. I think that God was smiling down from heaven, because even though we weren't perfect as parents, here she was, trusting God with her life. Her new life as Mrs Chad Duncan. I can't say that at that moment, I wasn't proud. Because I was...I was SO proud. I was proud that my daughter had chosen a man of God to be her husband. That they together were seeking Him. Proud that she went through so much and could easily be bitter and far away from God, but she chose to draw in closer to Him. Proud that her beauty was from the inside and not just outward. Proud that God had chosen US to be her parents. It was a pride that came from God, not because of anything I had done, or Scott & I had done, but what GOD had done THROUGH us! I was so thankful and so grateful to have been given such a blessing, that I think at that moment, my question was answered...we were ready to let go, BUT, let go for God's purpose for her...for God's plan for them.

Well, enough of the mushy stuff... :o)

The ceremony was candlit and beautful! Small, just the way they wanted it, with just the closest of family and friends. Everyone smiling and laughing and everyone there to wish the happy couple the best for their future together. They had their first dance, shoved entire cupcakes into one another's mouths, took beautiful pictures and off they went...

Mr and Mrs Chad Duncan.

It was an incredible day...for us all!

Trusting God...

Trusting God...what does this mean to me?
Why do I seem to be faced with this over and over again?
Maybe because it's hard for me?
Maybe because I haven't learned this to the fullest extent?
I don't know...
and yet, here I am again...
facing a difficult decision and trying to figure out what to do...

I have been given an ultimatum...I talked to my husband, I thought we had made a decision based on a few factors and yet, I was "punched in the gut" (the words of my daughter), by something someone said to me this morning...

"You need to trust God! When you do what honors Him, He will bless you! You may have to take a leap of faith in order to get this blessing, but in the end, He will take care of you!"

You see, I should KNOW this! I was faced with a difficult decision a few years ago, and you know what....I trusted Him then, and He blessed me...I put my faith in Him and He showed me that He is faithful...I let Him be first and He took care of me. He BLESSED me in more ways that I could even begin to imagine. My pastor read this morning that God knows the number of hairs on my head. He knows when the sparrow falls. Then how much more will my Heavenly Father take care of me?

I began to get excited and down right scared at the thought of what this might look like. Of what it "could" mean for me... for my family.
I cannot lie....
it freaked me out...
it made me panic...
it excited me...
it made me think...

I thought that my decision was made. I thought I knew what I "had" to do. I thought it was all figured out. But, guess what? I am second guessing my decision.

WHY?!

If I change and go the other direction, it will not only effect me, it will effect my family, our finances, our lives...BUT, it will be a leap of faith...it will be putting my family first...it will be...

TRUSTING GOD.
COMPLETELY.
WHOLLY.
WITH ALL THAT I AM.
TRUSTING.

Does He have more for me that I may miss out on? Does He have a better plan? If I stick with my original decision, will I miss out on His blessings for me, for my family? Is this me and my selfish desires that are taking over? Is it Him?

I have been praying throughout the day...I have been asking God,
"What are you telling me?"
"What am I supposed to do?"

The answer is not yet clear, but I know that if I am seeking Him, no matter what I choose, He will bless me. I am confused right now and I am asking Him to show me, to reveal to me what He is trying to teach me through this entire situation. I pray that it will be completely clear...completely revealed...

God give me the eyes to see and the ears to hear WHATEVER it is to learn this lesson that I have yet to learn...

"TRUST ME" ~ GOD